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   As some of you know, I have had the amazing blessing of staying at home with my beautiful daughter for the first year of her life. It has been a incredible journey, watching her grow and learn and become my little best friend. If I could, I would stay home with her longer. But when life throws you lemons, you make lemonade.

     Financially it makes more sense right now for her to go to Daycare. Which I swore I would never do. I am definitely not fond of the idea of someone else raising my child, and ultimately putting her life in someone elses hands but my own. However, this really is a positive thing! My mama bear just wants to hold and protect her completely for longer.

Ever since the beginning I have been the most protective mom. I don't honestly care what anyone thinks about it. She is my child, and I as her Mother do know best. Everyone always says nothing can prepare you for motherhood, and I do think that that is true. But for different reasons then most would think.

Noone prepares you for,

The heartache you feel when your baby is hurt for the first time, and any time.

The way your heart aches but is also overjoyed by watching her grow and grow everyday.

Realizing the little moments are precious and cherishing them is a bigger deal than you know.

When the day comes that you have to let them off into the world and worry every single second.

The people who will question everything you do as a mother, even though you do know what is best for your child.

How some days you will be completely frustrated and irritable but you wouldn't trade a single thing or ask for it any other way because it's all a blessing, even the hard stuff.

How everday will feel like Christmas morning, and how you'll also not even remember what life was like without your child in it.

Nothing can prepare how much more love your heart can hold for your baby. It's a love that no matter how many times described still can't be completely captured. Because it is that powerful.

Being a mother and being able to stay home with my daughter has been such a blessing and learning lesson and I am so incredibly lucky. I am lucky to have my husband and beautiful smart daughter. Going into this new chapter, I need to look back and embrace all of the good, even though my heart aches to leave her, she is going to learn and grow so much. I love you more and more each day.

Here's to us Moms! ❤

Quote Day

I decided to write about this quote because it hit me close to home. In the past, I have had arguments or debates about things trying to prove a point or prove something. Usually the point is to prove that person wrong. What I have learned especially with being a new mom and wife, that really it isn't about being right all the time.

The truth is, is that everyone is going to have an opinion. Nobody is right or wrong so that debate is one you will never win!

Sometimes people get so caught up in being right all the time, that they forget everyone is entitled to their own opinion and their way is likely not the only way. I know I am guilty of this, as well as probably every other person on this earth. But before thinking you are right all the time, take time to listen. Take time to really hear what the other person is saying. You may actually learn a valuable lesson from it.

A while back I had a post on my Facebook about a dress code violation at this students school and she was kicked out of the dance for exposing her shoulders. I was completely livid about this. To think that my daughter could be shamed one day for showing off her shoulders was appalling to me. I proceeded to comment about how angry it made me, and never once had an open mind to anyone else opinion.

Not only do I very much regret posting such strong opinions on my social media page, but I didn't give anyone else very much room to feel like they had a right to their opinion. Sometimes I am too proud. This quote has really opened my eyes to the fact that not everyone thinks the way I do. And yes I may not agree with their opinion or life decisions, it is not my place to judge and I really should consider being more open minded.

I hope after reading this you all think a little bit harder before trying to "Prove someone wrong" or think "My way is the only way" that you realize there is always two sides to every story and you should really try and have more of an open mind towards all people.

Thank you for reading. I hope you're enjoying my blogs!

"He who is without sin, cast the first stone."

Recently I saw a facebook post asking what eveyones view was on people who cheat. It apauled me at how judgemental people are. Most of them were very rude about the topic, and haven't even experienced it themself on either end. To me, that is ignorant.

To sit there and say "I would never cheat" or "If I was cheated on I would be done." is truly very ignorant. You have no idea what you would do until you're actually in it. I do believe that cheating is wrong, but I also believe in forgiveness. If God can forgive then why can't we? We are all sinners no matter how great the sin.

Another thing it brings to mind is do you know either persons reality on either end of it? No. I don't know why this world has become such a judgemental place. What would Jesus do? He certainly would forgive and people need to be conscious of that before they open their opinions to the world on the matter.

Let me just say there is never any excuse to cheat, but there is more to the story than you even know. There are usually things that lead up to that happening, or the person is just a psychopath. I do believe change can happen, and I do believe that some can't. However, it's not my place to share my thoughts on it, or judge, when I am not a part of that relationship!

If you and your significant other or spouse are going through something like this it can be healed and trust can be regained. I have seen it happen. I also know there is research to back up that couples who go through this and stay together end up stronger and happier than those that don't. I'm not saying I recommend you do it by any means. It is a pretty shattering thing.

Those are just some things to think about the next time you or anyone else starts to judge someone else on this topic or anything else for that matter. Are they or you without sin? He who is without sin, cast the first stone. If you're not familiar with that story from the bible you should definitely look into it. Especially if your relationship is suffering from infedility.

Life is way to short. Forgive, judge noone, and love as hard as you can!

What being a mother has taught me

   

 I've learned that I can love with my whole entire heart, mind, body, and soul. I love my daughter so much sometimes it hurts! I'm sure any mother could relate to that feeling though. The way she gazes into my eyes as I feed her, watching her grow and change everyday, and knowing it is my birthright to love her, watch over her, and love her unconditionally no matter what.

     I've learned just how precious life is and that material possessions at the end of the day are not what matter. At the beginning of my childs life she had a very rough start in this world. We were both very sick, and honestly very lucky and blessed to still be here today. Put down your phone, turn off the TV, and pay attention to your kids!!! It goes by in a blink and you don't wanna miss all the amazing things that come along with parenthood.

     Patience. I have learned so much more patience then I ever had before. Sometimes it can be hard, I have learned it is okay to have a hard day, and it is okay to cry, and still come out of it even stronger for my daughter. She needs my example and patience is important in so many areas of life.

     Growing up has been a huge thing also. Being a parent requires adult decisions and behavoirs and I wouldn't be who or where I am today without my beautiful little girl. She guides every single decision I make and makes me the best person I can be.

     Having a child changes your whole perspective on life as a whole for the better. Hold on tight to every single moment you have with your babies. As cliche' as it sounds, life is so precious and we only get one shot. So make memories and cherish every single moment you have.

Being a Twin

Everyone always asks me "What is it like being a twin?" or "Do you like being a twin?"
My response is usually something along the lines of. "It isn't too different from any other sibling, were just best friends." Which is true on some levels. But it is so much more then that. I DO have a best friend for life, but I also couldn't even imagine my life without her in it. I know she can feel what I am feeling, and the same goes for me.

We share a passion for singing, and being creative. But we are for the most part, very different in the type of people we are. Even though we are so different, I still feel so close to her. Even if we spend a lot of time apart. As I have grown up I have realized how precious our relationship really is. We used to fight 24/7. But now that were grown we have so much more respect for one another.

She is such a giving, loving, and creative soul. I really wouldn't be who I am today without her. We are the same age, but sometimes I feel like she is my bigger sister and role model. Whenever I am down I can count on her to cheer me up and send me in the right direction.

I love you so much Joda!

Expectation Is The Root Of All Heartache

Have you ever expected something, whether it be small or big, and when it doesn't happen you are completely devastated, pissed off, or annoyed? I know I have that is for sure.

You have to realize, that things in life almost never play out exactly how you hope them to. Sometimes you have to just go with the flow of things, and let life help things fall into place. If you have lower expectations the less likely you are to be hurt. I have learned this a lot, but it how do you actually achieve it? I know this is easier said then done. Because, I struggle with it all the time.

I honestly believe the true key is to keep your expectations low. People are not perfect, they also do not have the same agenda, or way of doing things that you may do. Keeping an open mind, doing what you need to do, and going with the flow will save a lot of frustration. Life is really too short to be upset about this things.

Also, if someone is continually not exceeding your expectation, you should number one; tell them what your expectations are. We are not mind readers as people, man or woman. Number two, just accept the fact of your differences and do what you need to do for yourself. You will be surprised and how much happier you will be. If someone is intentionally letting you down, and it is obvious. Maybe it is time to question if they should be in your life at all.

I am not really sure what compelled me to write this. I do know that if I feel like things didn't go the way I hoped them to. This is with really anything in life. I have to remind myself of these things. Sometimes it is not always good to over analyze things. I hope maybe I can help make light of your frustrations on this matter and you can grow to be stronger too, like I have.

Life life, love yourself, and don't have high expectations for everyone else. Keep those for yourself, because you are worth it!

Loving yourself, true beauty, and the wandering eye.

Well to start off, I may not be a size zero but I am a gorgeous woman regardless. Beauty isn't about appearance. That is only a part of it. Sometimes I wish that people could stop thinking with the wrong head instead for a few minutes. Lets just come to reality people, not all women look like Porn Stars in the real world. Since that is the demographic that a lot of guys are looking for it seems, it is pretty disheartening. Do you think that this doesn't hurt our feelings?

Granted, I am not going to sit here and say that I am perfect. I definitely think that Jax Teller from Sons Of Anarchy is the hottest guy ever. Having said that, I am not really looking for a man like that in the real world. It is not because I believe I couldn't get a man like that, but I actually prefer men who have quarks and are not considered "Perfect" like the media makes everyone believe. The reason I say this is because beauty really isn't skin deep. There is so much more to a person.

When I find a man that I am attracted to, this includes the appearance and personality, whole package. I am not concerned about telling other men how good they look. I do not have a wandering eye, and if you ever start to feel like you are complimenting other women or men on their sexy looks when you have claimed to like someone, then please have a heart to heart with yourself. It is important to be an honest person, and when it comes down to it even more important to be honest with yourself.

I think that looking is okay. This is human nature, I wouldn't expect anyone with hormones to not be attracted to the opposite sex, or even same sex for that matter. The difference is, is that if it is not acted upon then what is the actual problem? There is none. This man or woman you are with, will be coming home to you every night. This has to say something. But people are so afraid of the truth, and so afraid of actually coming to terms with themselves and what they want. Like my dad has always said, people always trade what they want for the moment for what they want long term.

I love who I am and the saying is true that "If you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."  I personally just believe that if you are not crazy about the woman or man that you are with, then you probably shouldn't be with them. Not only that, but how in the world could a woman or man be themselves when they are worrying about matching up to these people that you are wandering to?

I have grown so much, and I am such a strong woman in my life today. I know what I deserve and I am truly to the point where I will not accept anything less. I have to be realistic. Even though I am a hopeless romantic, the world has proven to me that you can think one thing, and something completely different is about to happen. I think a lot of men and women could relate to this, so I thought I would share.

Please remember that this article is not bashing on any type of woman. We are all beautiful, this is about people not being true to what they want, or just not being honest about it. I also think that beauty comes in so many different forms. But what about what is in their hearts? Their stories? You would be very surprised how crazy you can be about someone even if they are not up to "Perfect" standards. If you love yourself, everything falls into place. This is the truth in life and if you keep a positive attitude, you can have a life you always dreamed of having. Thank you for reading.